Help?

I have been MIA lately because of my loss of control over the war. Many battles have been lost and I am beginning to contemplate reaching out for help. Questioning for the MILLIONTH time whether I should continue to go it alone, or to reach out for help. This is a tough question. I really don’t know what to do. Which one is better? Is one better that the other? Go it alone or reach out for help? Keep it in as my own internal war, invisible to all those around me…or bring the support of others into my war to be victorious? So many difficult questions…what do I do?


Time and time again I have seemingly failed on my own…I have always been scared to reach out about this…nothing else in my life is difficult for me to ask for help…BUT this always has been difficult if not impossible.