I was fearless yesterday. I had a new found strength. It was nice.

Although I have not nearly begun this battle with the demon (I will no longer refer to him as “my demon” because he is no longer a part of me) the simple fact that I have consciously taken on this challenge is empowering; because it is such a challenge to take on. It has only been a day and a half since the beginning of this war I feel empowered. He can easily “hide” for a few days or more, and then rear his UGLY FUCKEN face whenever he feels like it. Not when I feel like it….when HE feels like it. This is because he is good at making me feel like I am in control when I am not. I have realized this. That is why I am at war with him. I want to push him in to the darkness of nothingness; back where he came from. I will need all the strength I can for this colossal feat; luckily humans are totally capable of such feats. I am only human, but to him I am the human who will end his existence.

It is time for him to go. It has been his time for a LONG TIME, but only now am I stepping up to the plate. His roots run so deep, that I can no longer tell whether it is my self or him who is talking in my head. I need to love my self more, and he will dissipate….forever.

Just this morning, he appeared and was able to create a feeling that I would miss him once I successfully end him. Amazing are his powers of influence! Truly Amazing.

The most amazing thing (which is also a key driver to my strength) is the fact that I know nothing else in my life will be as challenging as this war. Once I successfully defeat this mighty demon, other challenges in my life will simply be child’s play. It is as simple as that.

It is on. BIG TIME.

Day 2

This has been the by far the biggest challenge of my life. It has been a part of my life for around 12 years…which at the age of 24 is around half my life. Some years have been controlled by this demon more than others, but all these years he has been there. I hate him. I truly do. He is so evil he is able to take on the face of a friend who has my best interest in mind. After all this time, there is one thing I know for sure: HE DOES NOT HAVE MY BEST INTEREST IN MIND. He is a bastard and he needs to die. By dying he will no longer be a part of my life. I have given too much of my life to him…missing out on who knows how many great opportunities.

It is never to late to change the course of ones life, so today, right now…NOT TOMORROW (as I always say)…I am making a change. Look out…this could get a little crazy. If any one should look out it is this demon; he is in for some serious shit. That shit is my will power, the one major weakness to my being throughout my entire life. This will be the greatest test of all time….and that title does not even do it justice. This will be a journey…but a journey I am willing to take. Even know I am doubting my self and starting to justify this demon.

Bottom line: he is a demon, and has interfered with my life for the last time. I hate him.

Goodbye demon, thank you for teaching me so much about my self. Now I will use it to strengthen my self.

When I make it through this challenge and return to reality and real life, I will be unstoppable. The strength and willpower it will take to make it through this will be astronomical….once I am that strong, there is not much that can stand in my way.

Lets do it brah.

Day 1 begins.